[Lucy]

Brooke is gone.

I move one step closer to the guillotine.

I am nervous, but optimistic. I think the Vets want to abduct me. I can be Shambo for a few rounds. I'll play the part of the dumb savant and I can be patient... if I truly feel like I can make some headway into the vets alliance I will. Lord knows I have done it so many times before.

Right now I am talking with Dale and I will admit, it's a lot off ass play, tongue action, but I do like chatting with Dale. He has offered me an olive branch to safety and I would be an absolute moron not to take his hand and move into the future with him. We have been throwing information back and forth, I threw some info out because it's obvious he wants to trust me but is skeptical. He is very bright. He didn't give me any good info until I gave up the goods.

I told him about Gary possibly having the idol, Ryan painting the vets out to be the antichrist... and in turn Dale told me how Ryan basically fucked himself. Ryan was in the majority, turned on it, and fucked himself. Dale told me the vets alliance on Refugee were JOAQUIN, CHRISSY, NICK, RYAN, CARYN, AND DREW. Ryan turned on them and voted Chrissy when Alecia left, along with Nick... Ryan was next to go.

Dale tells me that a storm is coming. It's going to be DREW VS BRIAN at the next tribal and basically tells me it's the vets vs Brian and Danni. I have no way to change the tide, so I am getting with the program. I basically have two tribal councils before I am in danger. If we can just win 1 god damn challenge... I feel like I can get to the merge. If I get to the merge I will be safe for awhile.

I will have so many options.

[Jeff Probst]

i want some audio confessionals

[Lucy]

Yes Massah, five minutes.

[Lucy]

https://youtu.be/PU8hctPrBa4 < 10 minutes of faggy chat and banter. Your welcome.

[Lucy]

With only 15 people left in the game, are you beginning to worry about numbers?

I am always in a constant state of paranoia. A good survivor player is. You constantly have to be on your toes. You have to have back up plans. You have to put yourself in everyone elses shoes and anticipate what everyone elses best move is and how exactly you fit into them.

I am worried about the numbers shrinking on NuNuLucayan.

I think based on this war brewing between Brian and Drew that it seems very likely that Brian will lose it and go home. If that is the case - the only person standing in front of me on the way to the guillotine is Danni. I have only one person to push in front of a bus before the wolf pack begins to circle me.

If we don't merge at 13... I don't have a future.

Do you feel like you would rather play with Veterans, Newbies or does that label not affect your decision one way or another?

I want to play with the Veterans. Can I truly get into the veterans alliance? I'm not sure. I really am not. They think that Drew controls me, which is what I was hoping they would think. This isn't my first rodeo and they have been very sloppy. Drew told Dale everything I told him about him being targeted to leave. Dale said he 'heard' it second hand, which, the only person that would have known is Drew. It's not like he and Brooke were close and braiding each others back hair.

This is good though. If I have gotten them to like me now, who knows how far I can get them to trust me.

With there being so many swaps and shake ups, do the original tribes mean less and less as different combinations of people begin to meet? Or is there still a sense of loyalty to your original tribe?

I think that the switches has given me a unique opportunity to talk to the majority of the cast. I have met and am on good terms with everyone, but the two people I met.. and Jim doesn't count cause he has no personality.

Lydia and Chrissy will hopefully get voted off before we switch. If not, hopefully they like me when we meet too.

I feel like my ties to Taino are non existent any more. I like Adam, but not enough to throw my game away. I like Hannah, but I don't feel the bond that I have with some of the new people I've met. Am I writing any of them completely off? No. If for some reason I make merge and Taino is in the majority position I will have to suck it up and pretend like I've been with them this whole time.

[Lucy]

David aka the Pied Piper showed up about an hour or so before the challenge to give us a clue. I don't know who wrote the clue or if David came up with it himself, but I knew it was a Word Search and honestly, it made my nipples hard.

I love word searches, they are instant boredom killers. I also have really good predictive vision. I can see letters that are next too each other that make words. I almost never have to use a word bank. I am good at filling in the blanks myself. Based on something David said I thought we were going to have to look for all the booted players name. I'm frantically sending this information to my tribe, passing out pamphlets like I am a religious nut passing out apocalypse brochures.

Tonight is very important. If I'm right- Brian is leaving. If I'm wrong, I am leaving. I really don't care to find out. The challenge is posted and were told we are looking for words that tie into previous challenges, particularly the trivia contest that we just did.

As soon as it's posted- it's like I channeled all of the losers on the train working on a word search on their morning paper and a crystal meth addict. I speed. I get the first word. I get a second. I get a third... I'm looking around and I see Lucayan getting credit for the words I am answering. I am so off my rocker that I still think I am on the Taino tribe. I run to Probst and start yelling at him like a crazy pregnant women trying to murder her husband for implying that she looks like shes put on a few lbs.

Probst, ever the gentleman, keeps his cool and makes me feel like that total fucktard that I am. He pats my head like you would your twenty year old son finally learning to take a dump in the toilet after all of these years. BACK TO THE CHALLENGE... Our tribe is on point.. We need 1 more point or 2? Who is counting. I see it.... TAINO. Diagonal, aiming up like an erect penis. I circle it, well more like tried to circle it, I looked like I circled it mid stroke or with my left hand.

I hold my breath...

Not only did I post it first. Caryn found a new word after misspelling it the first time.

Lucayan wins Immunity.

I am finally, FUCKINGFINALLY going to get that night off that I so truly deserve.

I couldn't have one at a more clutch time because the vets all seem to think we are going to merge at 14 and me, I think they are high on bath salts. A 14 person merge... GIRL BYE.

Right as I am about to sign off Probst in so many words implies that we may want to stick around.

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK.

I never got my little break following a challenge ...not once... All the challenges I won with a tribe were either
1. Followed By A Switch
2. Rescinded Due To A Mistake Made By Probst
3. Followed By A Night Of Total Fuckery.


Hold your tits and hide your kids folks, THE MERGE HATH UPON US.

[Lucy]

Won* not one.