[Lucy]

It started late last night.

I am sick of how complacent everything is. I am upset Mari is gone. I don't understand why the non Taino's arent trying to win one of us over in hopes that we will flip. I'm tired of how Taino is being short sighted and not seeing the big picture.

So I finally went to Drew and kind of poked and prodded him. I asked him why he's basically just sitting back and not trying to make a move against the original Tainos. I mentioned that it's like theres this big elephant in the room and instead of trying to take us down everyone is lining up to kiss our asses just to make it to the next point of the game. I threw Drew a life preserver or at the very least gave him an option. I told him that I don't want this to be the TAINO SHOW. Drew acknowledged that fear is valid and he has a few tricks up his sleeve. I think he was telling me he found the idol without out and out saying it.

Drew expressed to me that he thinks that we need to keep winning because their is a MONDO Vets and Lucayan alliance and that he and Ryan were more than likely at the bottom of the vet totem pole. This corroborates what Ryan has been telling me, but I'm not sure if it's all a hoax. I don't like the fact that none of the vets are being voted out since they have entered the game. It could all be one big ruse.

After we shared our thoughts- his about the vets, mine about my original tribe mates shortsightedness- I don't feel like anything important was accomplished at all.

Drew just said he feels optimistic and that he has some tricks up his sleeve like he's fucking David Copperfield. While my trick is to shove my head up my own ass and pray I can keep breathing.

I am starting to think a lot more is going on behind the scenes on this tribe. Gary and Ryan have both gossiped about targeting Drew to Zeke... How can he feel confident unless a number is being run on someone somewhere? Is it on me?

What if original taino really is thinking like me and is ready to sacrifice one of us?

What if my urethra was actually Hello Kitty?

This game is making me crazy.

[Lucy]

Day 13 - Player Rankings

-Remember the only players that will be ranked are those that are currently on a tribe with me. I rank based on popularity/trust. 1 being the person I trust the most and so on down the line-

1. Adam
2. Drew
3. Hannah
4. Gary
5. Zeke
6. Ryan
7. Brooke
8. Will

Adam is my brother from another more. He is my favorite person to talk with and I feel like our interests are so in line, I might actually propose marriage once this is all said and done with. I don't feel like I am Adam's number one. I believe he likes me, but I feel like he is totally in league with Zeke. I still think back to that stupid Taino Alliance group chat and the four members. I've lately started thinking that Hannah might have been the fourth person in it... I guess I won't know, but I still think about that chat constantly. I know we are much further along in this game, but I always feel like Adam comes to me after he's talked things over with the other Taino's. I hope I'm wrong, but I feel like I'm not.

Drew is my number two favorite. I think he's very sharp and he tempers his intelligence with sarcasm which is great. I think Drew could open doors for me, especially with the vets. I would really like to hammer things down and make an alliance with him, but I kinda tried in a subtle way and he didn't take the bait. The ball is in his court. I just hope he doesn't use it to lop my head off.

Hannah is another possible alliance I could make and lock down. With Mari out of the picture I'm tempted to ask her if Mari approached her for a final two alliance and see if she will admit to any kind of deal with her. My only issue with Hannah is that I don't think she takes the strategy side of things very seriously. I think she is enjoying herself, but I think it's basically a big shrug to her. She's very Que Sera Sera.

Gary is an enigma. I find him to be super shady and over plotting. Gary gives out a lot of information and rather than coming off as helpful it comes off as devious. I imagine him being like Gilgamesh from the Smurfs up in some castle, cackling while rubbing his fingers together. We have been having great talks though. He is a bit of a nerd too, so we have been bonding over comics and I am trying to make him interested in Godzilla. Gary loooooves to talk about Big Brother. I don't know why he thinks I care about BB, but whatever makes him happy, I'll listen LOL.

Zeke, I feel bad, I never rank him high enough. I DO LIKE ZEKE. I PROMISE. I just don't trust him. I knoooooooow he is working with Adam and Will. I tell Zeke that I'm paranoid that Will won't show up for the vote the other day. Will signs on. 5 minutes later he messages me. I guarantee you Zeke told Will to come talk to me to try and make him look more active. I like going to Zeke and just letting him unleash with all the game knowledge he acquires. Most of the time he's never telling me anything new, but I just act like I'm thankful and that I'd be lost without him.

Ryan is a nice guy, but he's starting to fizzle for me socially. Zeke thinks he can control him and that worries me. It makes me think Ryan might be suckered by Zeke and that he's a lost cause.

Brooke is so cute. She's very happy and I can tell she really wants to play, but she's so out of her league. She never understands the instructions. She is like your drunk aunt that comes to your little league game and roots for the other team cause she thinks you're on it. I have no faith in her challenge wise. God forbid she is ever put in a position that she has to help our tribe do anything...

Will is last because he continues to be a big bore whore.

[Lucy]

I forgot to mention that I think I have been found out.

Adam called me a challenge beast last night. Fuck. I have been downplaying my strengths in the challenges and have tried to sit out or in the case of last night, pretend like I'm not around, to avoid being put in positions where I look like a strong competitor.

I'm clearly not doing a good job. I won an individual immunity that wasn't just a win, I smoked it. I led our tribe in the Color Code contest. Hannah always posted the guesses that I told her too...

I hope Adam keeps his mouth shut and doesn't tell anyone else about his thoughts of me being a challenge beast. That is the last label I need. A social player who is great at comps... I will be canned the minute I end up on the wrong side of the majority.

I think I may need to stage some kind of fuck up. Something that won't cause us to lose, but will be noticeable enough to make me look human and like I make mistakes.

I would venture to guess that I'm not even the best competitor on this tribe. I would give Gary that title. He is very smart and gets very involved.