Jeff Probst wrote: ↑Fri Jul 27, 2018 12:51:08 am
Having had a bit of time to reflect, what are your thoughts on the game.
Feel free to vent now about the twist, I'm sure you have plenty more to say.
What are your regrets, if any, about how you played? Would you return for another season despite having been the victim of an unorthodox twist?
I've expressed my thoughts to you on Discord, and after sleeping on it, they remain the same which I am shocked by. I have been a victim to many twists, some that honestly seemed at face value bad but I learned that there were things I could have done too. This, on the other hand, there wasn't anything I could have done IN MY CONTROL. This was an entire round based upon luck, even the challenge, so my biggest issue is that I couldn't have done anything that wasn't luck based. We didn't know the vote would tie twice, we had no way of coordinating it because everyone refused to strategize in public. If I did do something crazy, I would have blown my game up and either got sent home or became a massive goat, and I wasn't about to do that. Keep in mind though too I would be mad as hell too if I was still in and someone else got rocked out. I still, and always will, find this twist to be bullshit. There's no changing my mind on that. And no matter how the rest of the game goes, I will be forever marred by this round. I will be depressed if I find out that I was really in a great position and could have gone the distance, but I will be upset if I find out that I was going to go soon anyways.
I have no regrets because nothing about my elimination was my fault. You can say all you want about how "well, you could've strategized in public" but everyone confirmed they wouldn't have gone with it anyways. So there was absolutely nothing I could have done. I will argue that forever. And I might return for another season if asked, since I think I left the game in such a controversial twist that I don't think I ever got to the part where my game would have either flourished or failed. It also depends on timing and the fact of the matter is that I honestly might be done playing these games. I have had so many bad experiences as of late that I see as truly reflecting my lack of ability to succeed, and I play these games to have fun and to try and win. So leaving these games seeing how I never had a shot of winning always stings because I feel powerless and like I'm just not capable, whereas if I was close I also feel kind of shitty because I was so close and failed right before the finish line. I am a big believer in resiliency after failure, but at what point is getting knocked down so many times okay?
This twist didn't make me snap specifically, but more just was the last straw that broke the camel's back that has been coming for years. I am not mad at you, Probst, even though I was a little last night, and I'm not mad at this series that has worked so hard and long on creating a strong experience for everyone. However, my experience was still positive until this ending that I cannot ever forget or remember fondly.
