What a night!
That was crazy, and I'm so happy with how it turned out.
I have absolutely no regrets about that live tribal. I knew going into that I was going to get a bunch of votes, but the only thing I could do at that point was hope it wasn't me. I made a big mistake last season playing my idol because I was really nervous about the vote. I got no votes that tribal. This time, I wasn't going to make the same mistake.
If I used the idol and it turns out I DIDN'T need it, then I'm left with a huge target on my back, less power, and probably a few folks that are upset I didn't tell them about the idol. If I DID need to use the idol, then my game was screwed anyway. That was my thought process. It was a high risk for a high reward. Now folks might be less weary of me having an idol, and I've now confirmed that there's a lot of folks I can't trust.
There was no way to get through that tribal other than luck. I was getting that vibe that if anyone spoke up about a target, the accuser would be voted out. It wasn't gonna go down like last season. We didn't have any easy votes that people could agree on, we didn't have a Julie that was ready to say what she wanted. We had a bunch of fools that are trying to float by without making waves. Hopefully this wakes people and up and shows that even if you float by, you're not safe.
I'm so freaking happy with the outcome. Obviously I didn't want to go home, but I also really wanted Brian to have that rock. He was playing too good of a game. As far as receiving 6 votes, a lot of folks are telling me they voted to keep me, and they can't all be right. Right now I'd say Danni, Brian, Zeke, Lucy voted against me for sure, the others were probably 2 people of Lydia, Jim, Gary, Caryn. All of which told me they voted Adam. This'll be fun trying to figure out who I can and cannot trust, but right now it's not looking good in my Allies Department. Even Drew may have ran back to those vets and told them I have an idol. That's what Chrissy told me. I love this game
As much as I hate all of them, I need the vets this moment. And I hope they see they need me too... They're probably gonna push for Zeke or Gary or Adam, cause they know I have some more of relationship with them. I obviously don't want that so I'm gonna throw out a target ASAP. Which then they will probably ignore me and some crap might go down.
Let's go through the people:
Zeke - Funny, nice guy. I would love to keep working with him, but we'll see if he trusts me still, or if I can even protect him.
Adam - He is probably hesitant to trust me again. I tried lighting a fire under him and giving him some outside perspective on his game. We'll see if he uses it against me or with me. I want to keep him around.
Gary - For some reason I can't help but feel like he voted against me this last tribal. I trust him more than most people, but a few people have been lying to me. I hope it's not him cause I would love to go deep in the game with him.
Lydia - She seems like someone that is 100% against the vets and 100% with the Lucayans. I don't have a very strong relationship with her, I might have to throw her under the bus.
Chrissy - Every conversation I have with Chrissy I feel like one of us is lying and we both know it. It's so weird, but right now we might just have to suck it up and work together. I need to determine if I believe her when she says she's weary of Joaq and Dale. If she is, then I might be able to use her down the road. If she's not and I say the wrong thing, I'm dead.
Danni - Seems like a fun person, I don't know much about her though. If her and Chrissy really are tight, and she's been thinking about turning on vets, I might want to keep her around too.
Jim - I don't really trust him, but I do trust that doesn't have a whole lot of allies. It's like I have to look past all the BS coming out of his mouth and just focus on what his best game move is. If that includes keeping me, I won't go after him.
Joaq - I still don't trust him at all, he's so quick to shed the blame on other people. I will get my revenge on him when the time comes. For now, I think he realizes we need each other.
Caryn - She's playing a good game I feel. People don't take her seriously, but she knows what she's doin. I still don't like her, but I respect the game she's playing.
Lucy - She's a wild card for me. I know she voted against me, and I know she'd do it again. However, I know she's willing to turn on anyone and work with anyone. That could be useful.
Dale - Still need to reconcile with him, but he's still on my radar as someone that's playing a good game, and probably is against me. I like him as a person, but he's a good liar. Man, there's a lot of folks like him, aren't there.
Drew - He's still playing the middle, still in everyone's ear. I'm, surprised no one's figured it out yet. I really want to work with him long-term, but it just worries me that he's been playing me for a while now. Especially if he told people about my idol. I've made an effort not to throw him under the bus, but I might start doing it if I don't feel like he's got my best interest in mind.