[Jeff Probst]

With only 15 people left in the game, are you beginning to worry about numbers?

Do you feel like you would rather play with Veterans, Newbies or does that label not affect your decision one way or another?

With there being so many swaps and shake ups, do the original tribes mean less and less as different combinations of people begin to meet? Or is there still a sense of loyalty to your original tribe?

[Zeke]

Okay, I will make a short little update cause I need to say something that I really found interesting.

So, as I talked with Gary today and played ball with him about he sees everything in this game and what not. He told me that Me and Ryan were "leaders" of the tribe. And honestly, I am rather surprised as to where that came from. I really didn't see myself as a leader here because for the most part. I just mostly do my thing and also try and help people out during challenges in the best possible way that I can in order to show people that I want to be here and more or less that I don't want our tribe to lose at all. Either that's just me, however it really felt odd to hear from Gary that I am being considered a leader here.

[Zeke]

Okay, this is the first Immunity Challenge that I am fucking absolutely worried about.

[Zeke]

And I feel absolutely horrible right now and absolutely worried as fuck that this could be my last time in this series. I don't want to leave though and I will make sure to do whatever it takes to get rid of her.

[Zeke]

And by her, I mean, Chrissy.

[Zeke]

Well, we're switching for Jim.

[Zeke]

If I do get voted out however. I will need a lot of emotional support for this.

[Zeke]

Cause I genuinely fucking care about this game and I really will not want to leave this game. I have put my heart in this and just leaving before the big merge will just fucking break my heart. There has been never something this big that I haven't had the passion for. And just leaving before this whole thing goes haywire will brutally hurt me.

[Zeke]

So, if I do go. I just seriously will need a big box of Kleenex and something to get my mood better.

[Zeke]

Also, I will be using the Episode threads sometimes in order for me to panic or just do private commentary.

[Zeke]

I just am fucking scared right now that the worst is gonna happen and I will never get to merge in this series. I fucking care about this so much!

[Zeke]

Oh what the fuck?!

[Zeke]

So, this is all happening. Time to schill the fuck out to the Vets cause they are gonna be keeping my ass.

[Zeke]

And I ain't trusting these people anymore.