- Sun Jul 29, 2018 11:05:23 pm
#1653
Jeff I'm fucking livid about the tie vote. We literally had everyone ready to vote Ryan's punk ass out of here, and then he had to fucking win immunity.
As was stated multiple times today during tribal (and referenced many times in these confessionals) I don't give a rats ass who's a returning player and who's a newb. The returning players have so much fucking drama going on that I'm sure they're all just planning on using us as votes to get each other out. But I also feel like if we keep playing up this newbs vs vets mentality, it will only give them more of a reason to look out for one another. Its a fucking individual game and only one of us can win it, and they all know that.
Tonight I feel very out of control. But I've felt out of control for the last 48 hours so its nothing new. I get the move that was made, I get why they fed me an alternate name, and I understand why Gary had to go for everyone elses games. It probably helps me a little bit that I didn't vote for him the first time around because everyone knows that Joaquin and Dale played the tribe. I think there is going to be some reshuffling coming up here, and I'm interested to see how things shake out.
At this point my best move is to suck it up, but remember who fucking told me the truth. Lydia, Chrissy, and Drew were all honest with me about who they voted for. I can only really base who I trust off of the votes at tribal, because everything else is just talk. Chrissy and Lydia are the only 2 people who have always been straight with me about their votes. No matter what other people are saying about them, those are the people I'd trust the most at the moment.
There are always moves to be made Jeff. that's a dumb question.
Tension between the vets. I know this pretty well. Obviously Dale and Ryan have a feud at the moment. I know Dale and Joaquin are also not high on chrissy. Drew has told me he feels out of the loop and that none of the other vets even consider him an option. Caryn is still and enigma, an I'm fascinated by her tbh. I think shes the real mastermind of the season. I really think the walls of the veteran block are going to come crumbling down soon enough jeff, just depends on when someone decides to strike.
tbh I'm probably the newbie most closely aligned with the vets. you should know this jeff. keep up.
Lets put it this way. I have so much shit on Joaquin and Dale that they're going to come groveling back and try and make nice. Basically I can blow them up, and I won't hesitate if I find out they're gunning for me. I'll continue to target Ryan because he has given me no reason to think that he's trustworthy, and he slandered me all fucking weekend. I hope that he fucking leaves soon.
basically, tonight was a fucking mess. I literally think my chances of winning the game went out the door with Gary, but now that means I'm just here to have some fun. and I can't fucking wait.
